a collection of thoughts.

.my mother told me i had pretty eyes today. i value compliments from my mother higher than compliments from anyone else.

.watching the sunset, dancing in the rain, and stargazing are some of my favorite hobbies.

.funerals. death. i don't do well with them. i will cry for days over any death, whether or not i knew the person closely or not. i can remember the first funeral i went to. i was only 8 years old, and i saw my grandfather cry for the first time. after that, i couldn't stop crying. when we got home, he put me on his lap, pulled out the old family Bible, and told me Jesus cried too. he said if the Lord of the universe cried, it was okay for a little girl like me to cry as well. my grandfather's sister died this week. i cried. her funeral is on tuesday, and i'm not sure if i'll be able to handle it. i'll just have to remember, Jesus cried too. 

.i surprise myself by how quickly i can eat a bar of dove chocolate. i should establish a world record or something. i swear i can swallow one whole bar in 0.5 seconds flat if i'm super emotional.

.i was once told that missing someone wasn't about how long it's been since you've seen them, or how far apart you are, it's about doing things in life and wishing they were there doing them with you. well, i've experienced it all. it's been to long since i've seen him, he's in another country, and every thing i do reminds me of him. makes me wish he was doing them with me. makes me wish he was just here. or i was there. wherever. just, together.

.i watched 'Anne of Green Gables' today. it's basically my favorite movie of all time. i'm convinced that if my romance doesn't turn out to be as divinely perfect as Anne & Gilbert's, i'm going to give up on love completely. all my friends tell me i'm anne down to a t. i believe it. i'm a passionate exaggerator, avid reader, i have her imagination, and red hair. i've always been stumped by the question, "Which would you rather be: Divinely beautiful, dazzlingly clever, or angelically good?". It's so hard to choose. I constantly use the word "tragical" in my daily life. & I could pretty much quote the whole movie here and tell you how it relates to me, but i won't bore you.

.i have this queer habit of standing up for the people no one likes. even if they have good reason not to like them. maybe it's because i was bullied as a child, so i hate seeing other people be put down too. maybe it's because i just like going against the crowd. but i've always rooted for the villains, supported the outcasts, and had a special place in my heart for Ringo Starr.

.i suppose i should end this post now. i still haven't gotten around to telling you about how amazing camp was. or about how i've been to more doctor's appointments than i'd like to admit. or about how school starts in a couple weeks and i'm dreading it. but it's late. so i'll leave you with this last thought...

.do you ever wonder if people you don't even know are thinking the same thing you are?

i do.